what were u expecting?

i honestly didn't feel like blogging today... not b/c i was too busy, but just b/c it's just "goo-cha-nah" to do so (for the things i want to talk about)... so anyways.. there's 50min left in the day, and God is testing my patience. i wish i could just scream and groan in frustration... but that would be unprofessional. haha...

so this cop thing is starting to bug me... not the cop thing.. just my family that asks about it. yesterday, both my mom and my sis were telling me to keep trying. what would be a good analogy... hmm... it's like u hook up with someone... and ppl constantly tell u that they don't like him/her. u just don't want to hear it b/c u've made ur mind. or rather... in this case, i know that this is God's sovereignty. if He wants me to become a cop.. then i'll get a letter from one of the 14 other places i applied to besides Santa Clara (and no, 14 is not a made up number).

i could totally be using this free time productively... but i'm a lazy bastard. i don't want to open up biblegateway.com... i don't want to job search b/c i don't know what to look for... jeez... no wonder why i'm single. haha... girls usually want guys that have dreams... a passion... as for me? i'm just me. no dreams, no passions. is that sad? eh, kinda. i wish i did have some kind of dream... a tangible one... maybe i'll have one later... and maybe not, but i'm not gonna cry over it. I trust that God will still provide a way out of this place... but when? how? and why does He test my patience with boredom?

So i went to tkd last night... and my master asked me if i could teach on tuesdays... i said i would.. so now.. my schedule has changed: