what were u expecting?

i've been in a spiritual slump lately. my heart has been in rebellion from God for no apparent reason, but God will use anything He chooses to bring you back. Case in point, last night i was talking to a friend who has an illness. i'd say it's very severe especially for her age. but just hearing about her trust in God and the way she tries to appreciate every single day has really humbled me and brought me back to prayer.

on a side note... i missed a call last night, and it turned out to be mijung. the last time she called was about 2-3mo ago. she said she's just been really busy, and that she'll call me back in a few days. (but that's what she said last time and she didn't leave her new # w/me)... as i was listening to her vmail... i had this happy/shocked feeling.

-do i miss her? hmm... kinda... i think she'll always have a very small piece of my heart.
-would i go back to korea for her? nope... if i happened to be in korea and we were both single...
-would i pursue her? *shaking 8-ball*, "signs point to yes"...
-would i ever break up with a gf (if i had one... c'mon use ur imagination!) to get w/her if she was in the states? nope...
-would i ever think about her even tho i had a gf or wife? not in a romantic sort of way.

here are a few more updates...

- last sunday at kcpc this week
- last football practice on sunday w/sf yag
- started playing co-ed football games on monday nights w/sf yag
- i don't have the 'lost' feeling right now, but i'm still lost
- my parents came back from toronto safely and it was a good break for both of us
- i think there's more.. but i actually have some work to do, if u can believe that.